We'reOkay

It’s really difficult to not be in a relationship, but maybe it’s for the better. I was in one for two and a half years, but I chose to leave it because it just didn’t feel right anymore. People change. I definitely changed because I learned that I didn’t need that ONE person to maintain my happiness, especially if this person didn’t need me to maintain his happiness. I was unhappy underneath it all, but I feared loneliness the most. So, I stayed longer than I should’ve. But still, I realized that when I was with him, in his presence, I was happy because he was happy. I cared about him so much. I put him before myself every second of the day. When I decided to leave him, I automatically turned to another guy. I guess you could call him my rebound. He was different than my first love. He was rebellious, care-free, and wild. Danger was written across his forehead but I ignored all the red flags because I was living for this new feeling. He made me feel alive when I felt his weight abov

I've always wanted to be a person who says what they're going to do, and then does it. I have been super reflective lately on how my actions impact others, in good or bad ways. How have I raised people up? Who have I hurt? What have I said I was going to do and then didn't do? How are people around me, or even myself, impacted by that? I've done a mediocre job at holding myself accountable for the things and promises I've let slip by, both directly and indirectly. I didn't call him/her back. I didn't make it to this, in the absence of a good  reason. I did not try my hardest on this one thing, because I simply didn't want to. With specific regard to two people in my life, I have not kept my word. One is a mother for whom I tutored. But with the presence of school work, I sort of slipped out of communication with her, living her without a tutor. The other is a very sweet, past-potential romantic partner that I never called back. We were going diffe